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Xander stared wide eyed at his lover.  It never failed to amaze him how quickly things deteriorated from “Oooh, that can’t be good.” to drop dead, out of control, seriously grim.

 

“Missing? What do you mean missing? How can Angel be *missing*?” Xander’s tone had turned high pitched and panicked.

 

“I don’t bloody know!” Spike snapped.

 

Xander lower his eyes to the floor and took a step back, a flash of hurt and dejection streaking across his face.

 

“Luv.” Spike pulled Xander back towards him and placed a chaste kiss onto his temple.  He ran his fingers through his hair and lifted his chin.  “Sorry, didn’t mean to snap...”

 

“It’s okay.  I’m sorry too.  I’m just freaking out.”

 

“Yeah,” Spike agreed. “Me too.”

 

Giles straightened his glasses. “What’s happened, Spike?”

 

“Cordy said that Angel left five days ago, he was due to meet a Puggli demon down in Timberton. He should have been back a couple of nights ago. He never showed. He’s not bloody called or nothing.”

 

“Gods!” Cried Willow. “That’s not like him at all!”

 

“What are we going to do?” Xander asked..

 

“I’m gonna go look for him.”

 

Xander opened his mouth to speak but found that it was too difficult with so many different things that were aching to leak from his brain and spill from his lips.  He didn’t want Spike to go.  He was worried about this so called man that was coming for them in less than seven hours, but he was worried for Angel too. 

 

Xander resigned himself to the fact that Spike needed to do whatever he could to find his Sire. Maybe he would let him tag along. Xander opened his mouth again.

 

“Spike…?”

 

Spike had heard Xander’s brain whirling and he knew his lover well enough to be able to guess what was on his mind.

 

“I’m going Timberton. Cordelia gave me Angel’s motel details.  I can be there and back in a couple of hours and no, you can’t come.” He turned to face the rest of the room. “None of you can.  I wanna go by myself. Buffy? I want you to stay with Xan. The rest of you can bugger off and get some sleep.  Be back here at two in case our unknown visitor makes an appearance.”

 

Everybody nodded their agreement.  Spike was tightly wound and any debate was likely to send him into fiery rage.

 

“You will be back soon?” Xander asked

 

“Course, luv, before you know it. Don’t worry, pet, Gonna find Angel and together we’re gonna come back and tell this mysterious bloke to fuck the hell off. Ain’t no-one gonna hurt us.”

 

Xander sighed.  He had the feeling that tonight would be an extremely long night. He leant in and gave his lover a goodbye kiss that he hoped would bring him back quicker.

 

“Be careful.”

 

“When am I ever not?

 

“Shall I answer that?”

 

Spike pretended to think about it. “Naah, best not.” He gave his lover a jokey smile that held so much more than just humour. “See you in a couple of hours.  Stay here and stay safe.” He turned to Buffy. “You’d better keep him safe, Slayer, or you and me are gonna fall out.”

 

“Aww, don’t want that, blondie.  Consider it done. And Spike?…Please bring back Angel.”

 

“Angel will be here before you know it. I promise.”

 

With a swish of his duster, Spike was gone.

 

**

 

The highway was long, straight and deserted and Spike hurtled along it at a speed that he would not have dared if Xander had been in the car with him.  He gripped tightly at the steering wheel and let his mind drift to places elsewhere. 

 

This should not be happening.  This was not how things should be.  They were family, him, Xander and Angel.  How could Angel have been missing for two nights without his family knowing?  Spike growled, he had only just found his Sire again after such a long separation and there was no way that he was going to lose him again now.  When things were back to normal, and they would be, the three of them were going to sit down and have a little chat about what being a family really meant.

 

Spike glared at the open road and he frowned as the coloured lights of a motel came into view. The Sleepy Rider. As Spike pulled into the tiny car park, he wondered what an earth had possessed his Sire to rough it in such a sleazy, piece of shit place.

 

Spike stepped out of the car and unscrewed a piece of paper from his pocket.  Room 12.  He looked around at the chalets lined up in front of him and spotted the room number easily.  He didn’t try the door to see if it was locked; instead he gave it one hard kick, and slammed it open.  Stalking straight in, he faltered slightly at the sight of the demolished room. It had been turned upside down. Angel’s belongings were shredded and scattered everywhere. But Spike had no time to even comprehend what could have possibly happened here as he felt a sharp blow to the back of his head and his world abruptly fell into darkness.

 

**

 

“What time is it now?”

 

“Nearly two am.  That would be only two minutes later than the last time you asked.”

 

“Buffy! Can you drop the playful sarcasm? Spike should have been back hours ago and *also*? The seven hours is just about up, the guy the Trable Muckers told us about? Well, he’s probably due to drop by anytime now and I doubt very much that they were just talking about the pizza delivery guy!”

 

“Xander, calm down.  Think about it.  It’s probably good that Spike’s not back, it means he’s on to something.  He’s probably on his way back with Angel as we speak. And as for this other dude? Well, even if he actually does exist and the Pixies weren’t playing a mischievous and cruel little joke, then he’s got to come through me.  Not an easy task Xan-man, as I’m sure you are aware.”

 

Xander felt himself relax slightly at Buffy’s confident words.

 

“Look, you go make some coffee, I’m going to put on a DVD and together will watch it and *not* think about Spike, Angel or any nasties, yeah? *Yeah?*

 

“Yeah, okay.” Xander sighed and went into the kitchen to make the coffee.  He tried desperately to close his mind to the any number of things that could have happened to his lover or to his…Xander paused with a spoon of sugar hovering over one of the mugs.  What was Angel to him? Sure Angel was Spike’s Sire, but what about him?  Xander was bound by blood to older vampire, surely that should have some sort of title? He nodded inwardly.  He would remember to ask Angel when he next saw him.  Xander’s breath hitched and he exhaled a slow shaky breath.  What if he never got the chance to see Angel again?

 

Xander was pulled from his dark fears by the sound of a quiet thud coming from the other room and he walked cautiously into the living room to check it out. What had that klutz of a Slayer dropped now?

 

“Buffy? Where’d you go? Buffster?”

 

Xander looked down at the DVD player; the tray was left open and the movie they were going to watch sat half in and half out of its box. Out of the corner of his eye, Xander saw a tall dark figure walk silently in from the hall. He spun around to face it and his heart raced as he recognised the man that was now leaning against the door frame.  The man held his arms open in a wide welcoming gesture and Xander ran straight into them, hugging tightly at the hard cold hard body. He nuzzled into the man’s chest, breathing in his scent, before pulling away slightly and staring into eyes that were as dark as his own.

 

“Angel.”

 

The vampire gripped the tops of Xander’s arms and Xander drew in a sharp breath at the burning pain of the strong, icy fingertips.

 

The man shifted into his gameface and slowly shook his head. “Try again, boy.”

 

Xander paled and he felt like he wanted to vomit. “Angelus,” he whispered.

 

“Very good. And they say you’re not a bright boy.  Well, don’t’ they just have egg on their faces.”

 

“Angelus, what are you…?”

 

Angelus placed a single finger over Xander’s lips. “Hush, child.  *We* are going to sit down and wait for your lover to come back. Then, the fun will begin.”

 

 

**

 

The room span around in dramatic circles and Spike squinted and tried to remember where he was.  He seemed to be on the floor staring up at a dancing ceiling.  So wherever he was, it couldn’t be good.

 

He was grabbed and hauled to his feet and the room continued to dance at a different angle.  Spike finally managed to focus and was appalled to find that he had been clobbered and knocked out by a Puggli demon.

 

“What the fuck?” Spike asked.

 

“S-Silence, vampire.  W-we a-ask the questions.”

 

Spike quirked an eyebrow. “Is that right? What do you want to ask, hmm?”

 

The huge pink, spotty demons tensed at the vampire’s cool calm words.  Perhaps they could smell there own death somewhere in the very near future “Where is Angel?” one asked, cautiously.

 

Spike calmly lit a slightly bent cigarette and blew out a long stream of smoke before he answered. “Funny, that. I was just about to ask the same thing.  I’m guessing he came here to meet you.  Am I right?”

 

“Yes.  We had a business deal to discuss with him.”

 

“Business? Now, what sort of business could a couple of ugly, lumpy lowlifes like you, offer my Sire?”

 

Sire? Ooops. The taller Puggli stepped back.  In truth, neither of the demons felt quite so cocky now that Spike was no longer blacked out on the floor.  Damn vamps and their quick recovery time.

 

“We have some tomes that Angel is interested in.  Tomes that were long ago lost and thought to be gone forever. We wanted to arrange a trade.”

 

“For what?” Spike growled.

 

“In *Thanks* for us giving him the tomes, we only asked that Angel retrieve an artefact for us.”

 

“What artefact?”

 

“T-That is none of your business, vampire.”

 

Spike snatched at the Puggli.  He pulled it closer and head-butted the creature in the face, smiling at the sickening crunch of bones. The other demon bore in on him and swung a powerful arm at his head.  Spike ducked and avoided the blow easily, laughing all the while at the Puggli’s feeble fighting skills. He quickly flipped up the heal of his palm with graceful precision and struck the demon’s chin, snapping its head backwards with surprising force. 

 

Both creatures started to climb to their feet and Spike stopped them with a firm hand in the air.

 

“No, no, boys. Don’t get up, not on account of me.” Spike reached down to the floor and picked up his cigarette, dusting off tiny pieces of fluff.

 

“Now, where was we? Oh yeah, you were about to tell me about an artefact.”

 

The two demons looked at each other. “We were?”

 

Spike nodded, calmness completely restored.

 

“Oh yeah! Of course we were!”

 

“We wanted Angel to get us the eye of Caldra.”

 

Spike laughed. “You must be bloody joking! Angel would never agree to that!”

 

The demon lowered its eyes and cringed in preparation for the death that they were about to know.  “We know…But Angelus would.”

 

Spike narrowed his eyes and crunched up his cigarette in his hand. “You lured him here and took away his soul.” It was not a question.

 

“Yes, Angelus is the only one that can help us retrieve the eye.”

 

“Why?”

 

“Because it was Angel that hid it.”

 

“And what happened here?”

 

“Angelus, he refused to help us still.  He said that he had better things to do now that he was feeling more like his old self.  He was laughing and then he took off, he didn’t even take the books….”

 

The other Puggli placed a plump hand onto its friends shoulder to get his attention. “Err, he’s gone.”

 

The babbling demon looked up and sighed out his relief. “Larry, we can only thank the gods that these vamps don’t say proper goodbyes.”

 

 **

 

 

“What have you done with Buffy?” Xander asked, straining to keep his voice steady.

 

“Oh she’s in the hall.  Don’t worry, she’s just sleeping. Actually that reminds me, I’d best put her outside; don’t want her waking up and spoiling all the fun.”

 

Xander was almost too afraid to ask. “You’re not going to kill her?”

 

He shivered as Angel stroked a surprisingly gentle hand down his cheek.

 

“No, not just now. Why don’t we call it a gift? A gift from me to you, for being such a good boy. Now go and sit on the couch while I take your friend outside.”

 

Angelus moved towards the hall to move Buffy’s unconscious body.  He turned around once to face Xander who was still standing in exactly the same place.

 

“I thought I told you to sit.” His voice was cold and devoid of any detectable emotion. “Shall I take back my gift?”

 

Xander immediately started to walk backwards towards the couch. “No! *please.* I’m sorry.  I’m going!”

 

Angelus turned back around and approached Buffy’s body.  As he lifted her up, the Slayer groaned.  Angelus quickly heaved her up and opened the front door.

 

“Godess! What’s happened to Buffy? Is Xander okay? Did someone come already? Who was it, Angel?”

 

“DEAR LORD!” Angelus Shouted with some amount of amusement in his voice. “Do you people ever stop babbling?”

 

“Angel? What’s the matter? What’s happened?”

 

Angelus frowned. “Clearly not,” he said, still referring to the babbling. “Okay, *Scoobies* here’s the deal. I got rid of my pesky soul again. I knocked out Buffy and was just about to dump her body in the street.  And Xander is fine. Does that cover it? Or have I missed something out?”

 

Giles stepped forwards “I demand to know where Spike and Xander are.”

 

“Do you, Watcher? Well, as I’m in a generous mood, I’ll share. Spike, it seems, has disappeared on a mission to find me, and Xander is inside patiently waiting.”

 

Angel threw Buffy’s limp body into the arms of her friends. “If you want Xander to stay alive, stay out of this house, and don’t try anything.” Angelus half closed the door before speaking again with a smile that was almost pleasant. “Oh and if you do happen to see Spike on your travels, please send him in.”

 

**

 

The drive back to Sunnydale was the longest drive of Spike’s un-life. The speedometer hit one ten, but to Spike it felt like forty.

 

Spike muttered to himself, going over and over the different scenarios that he could be facing when he arrived back home.  Would Angelus even be there? Maybe the he’d gone on to pastures new, perhaps to find a new Childe? Or maybe he had gone to find Drusilla?  But Spike knew that he was kidding himself.  He knew Angelus well enough to know that he would be waiting in Sunnydale for him.  He was probably sat waiting for him in his house.  This last thought make Spike feel sick to the bottom of his stomach.  Did Angelus have Xander? Or had his lover gotten away in time? Spike doubted it.  It was Angelus’ style to just walk in bold as anything.   And knowing Xander, he would have just flung himself into the arms of the vampire that he thought was his friend.

 

Spike tasted bile building up in his throat and as he swallowed it back down he realised that he was now driving like the clappers down his own road.  He spotted his house and abruptly applied the brakes.  The car screeched to halt and Spike bolted towards the house, not even bothering to close to car door behind him. Seemingly from out of nowhere, Buffy stepped in front of him and blocked his path.

 

“Slayer! What the fuck are you doing? You’re supposed to be with Xan.” Spike took a moment to look around him and finally spotted the rest of the Scooby gang, minus Xander.

 

“Spike, I don’t quite know how to tell you this, but, Angel...he’s…”

 

“Yeah, I know, Giles.  He’s Angelus again.” Spike spoke with obvious impatience in his voice. “Where’s Xander?”

 

Willow stepped forward and Spike frowned at her.  Her face was streaked with red tear tracks.  A thousand thoughts flew through Spike’s brain and he grabbed Willow none too gently and shook her.

 

“WHERE IS HE?” he screamed.

 

“He’s in the house, he’s alive, Angelus has him. He said he would kill Xander if we came near.  But he said you’re to go in.”

 

Spike let go of Willow and stared at the house.  Out of all the scenarios that had played out in his head, this one had been most prominent.  Angelus had come to collect what was his, his childe, his family.  He just hoped that Angelus had put Xander in that category.  If not then there was a good chance that he was about to walk into his house and find his lover’s lifeless body laid out in a token gesture of Angelus’ power and will.

 

Spike turned to Giles. “Stay away from us. Find a way to restore Angel’s soul. But stay away until then.  I don’t wanna risk that Angelus will hurt Xander.”

 

“We quite understand.  We’ll see if we can find a spell to…”

 

“Track down the Puggli demons that did this.  They might be able to reverse it.” Spike handed Giles the crumpled up piece of paper that had Angel’s motel details on it. “Try here, that’s where I saw them last.  They’re not a particularly clever breed, so they’re probably still there trying to work out where the hell Angel went to.”

 

“Why did they do this?” Tara asked.

 

“S’not important.  Just find what kind of mojo they used and bloody well reverse it.”

 

Spike went to walk away but Buffy stopped him. “Wait! What about Angelus?”

 

“Wot about ‘im?”

 

“We can’t just leave you and Xander.  He could kill you!”

 

“Yeah, he might, but then again he might not. But if you interfere with whatever he’s got planned, he’ll *definitely* kill Xander.” If he’s not dead already

 

“So what are *you* going to do?”

 

“I’m gonna play along until your can give him his soul back.  You know that saying? Keep your friends close but your enemy’s closer. Look, just go and do your thing, and *please* don’t come near us unless you can re-soul Angel”

 

“Okay. But please be careful. And take care of Xan.”

 

Spike wasn’t listening; he was too busy storming towards his house.  The gang let him go. Of course he would be careful. Of course he would take care of Xander. There was no doubt. Or was there?

 

**

 

As Spike approached the house, he hoped to god that the Scooby gang would do as he had asked and stay away.  Not only was he terrified that his Angelus would hurt or even kill Xander if they came to close, it would be better all round if Buffy and the others stayed away until they could really do something to help.  As much as it pained him to admit it, he didn’t want to lose *any* of them.  Still, he would keep that little revelation very much to himself.

 

Spike opened the door to his house and he sagged slightly with relief when he heard Xander’s heartbeat, strong and healthy, coming from the next room.   He lit up a cigarette and forced a calm and sensible persona to rise to the surface.

 

Walking into the living room, Spike took a moment to check his surroundings. Xander was sat, curled up at the far end of couch.  He looked frightened, but he didn’t seem to be hurt. There were no broken furnishings and there was no smell of blood. Spike assumed that this meant Xander had been nothing but compliant.  That was good. Calm was good.  There was not much that was worse than when Angelus lost his temper.

 

“Ahh, Spike.  Good of you to finally join us.”

 

Xander suddenly looked up; he had not heard Spike enter the room.

 

“Yeah, well, I would have been here a lot bloody sooner if it hadn’t been for those sodding Puggli demons.  One of them clocked me good and proper.”

 

Angelus laughed. “Spike, Spike.  You always did have the worst luck.”

 

Spike approached his Sire cautiously.  Angelus was sat on the arm of the couch, on the opposite side from Xander.

 

“Let’s drop the chit chat just for a second here.  What’s going on?”

 

“You know what’s going on here, Spike.  I’m back.”

 

“I know that.  But what do you want with us?”

 

“Oh, Spike, how can you even ask?  I’ve come to get you.”

 

“Yeah, and?”

 

“We are going to leave Sunnydale together and be a real family again.  I have a good feeling that I know where Dru is.  She’s not far. We will travel the world, Spike.  It will be just like old times.” Angelus had stood and was waving his arms in the air in a dramatic gesture.

 

“One thing, Angelus.” Spike moved to block the direct path between his lover and his Sire. “What about Xander? Where does he fit in? He’s part of this family too now.”

 

“I am aware of that, Spike.  His blood runs though my veins and mine through his.”

 

Angelus walked around his Childe and squatted down in front of Xander. “He is one of us.  Although you really should turn him.  I can’t say that I completely approve of his human status.”

 

“No,” Spike said, firmly. “I will not turn him.”

 

Angelus shrugged and continued to try and catch Xander’s eye.  It amused him that Xander would not look directly at him. “Well, it’s your choice.  He’s your consort.  I can certainly see the benefits of having a young warm body to fuck.  Of course, he won’t be young forever.  What will you *do* when he’s dead?”

 

“Shut. The fuck. Up.”

 

Angelus stood up and turned to face his Childe. “Watch how you speak to me, Childe. I will not tolerate your rudeness.”

 

“Then don’t speak about my consort like that.”

 

Angelus roared and lifted Spike in the air by his neck. “He maybe your consort, but you are my Childe and I will speak to both of you however I like...”

 

A sharp blow to the side of Angelus’ head caused him to drop his victim. Angelus clutched at the bloody wound and staggered sideways. He growled and turned slowly to face the source of the sudden attack. Xander stood just a few feet away, holding onto a brass candlestick and wearing an expression of surprised innocence.

 

“You should not have done that, boy.”

 

Angelus struck so quickly that all Xander saw was an angry blur. Angelus rushed forward and backhanded him painfully across his cheek. The force of the blow knocked Xander face down into the couch and he scrabbled to turn back around before Angelus could take advantage of his vulnerable position. Angelus dragged him forward by his legs and raised his hand to strike him again.

 

“NO! Angelus! Please don’t hurt him!”

 

Angelus paused to grin at Spike before deliberately landing another blow across Xander’s face.

 

Releasing Xander from his clutches, Angelus stood and regarded his Childe. “Your consort needs some serious disciplining. I should flog him for what he just did.”

 

“He was only trying to protect me.”

 

“And that is the only reason that he can still walk. You will teach your consort to show me some respect.  Discipline him, Spike. It will be kinder in the long run.”

 

Angelus stepped aside and allowed Spike to tend to his consort.  “I’ll just be in the kitchen.  I notice you have some kind of weird yoghurt in the fridge, think I’ll give it a go. Oh, and don’t even think of making a run for it, Spike. I will Catch you both and break every bone in your consort’s body.” Angelus smiled and disappeared into the kitchen.

 

Spike sat on the couch and took his lover into his arms. “Xan, pet.  Please don’t ever do anything like that again, okay?”

 

Xander pulled back and fixed Spike with his kicked puppy dog eyes. “But he had you by the neck!  I had to do it!” he protested.

 

“You’re forgetting, pet, I’m a vampire.  What could kill you can barely even scratch me.  I would have been okay.  Angelus won’t kill either of us if we just play along, so you’ve just got to be patient and not rock the boat, yeah?”

 

Xander nodded. “Yeah, okay. Sorry.”

 

“Don’t be sorry, luv. Just be sensible. Now, let’s have a look at the damage, shall we?”

 

Spike ran his fingers lightly over the darkening bruise over Xander’s cheek bone. “Nothin’ broken there. Although it’s gonna swell if we’re not careful.” Spike then traced his fingers across the small cut on Xander’s lip. “Anything hurt in there? Loose teeth and what-not?”

 

“No loose teeth. I bit my tongue, though.  That kinda hurts.”

 

“Yeah I thought you might have.  I can smell the blood from here.” Spike pulled a tissue out of his pocket. “’ere ‘ar, pet. Spit into that while I go get some ice.”

 

**

 

Spike smashed the ice cubes into tiny pieces and wrapped them carefully in a cloth.

 

“Did you speak with him?” Angelus asked

 

“Yes.  He won’t be doing anything like that again.”

 

“Glad to hear it.  Now, if you two would like to get your things together, we can make a move. Sunrise is in just over an hour.”

 

“Where are we going?”

 

“Oh, not far, a little place just outside of town. I just think I would sleep better knowing that those fucking do-gooders outside aren’t lurking about.”

 

Spike paused and turned to face his Sire. “Why haven’t you killed them yet?”

 

Angelus raised an eyebrow. “Is that what you want?”

 

“No. It just seems strange that you would come all the way back here and not bother to even try and kill them.”

 

“I’m not stupid, Spike. I came here to get you and Xander.  And I plan on leaving with the minimum of fuss.  Xander would be very unsettled if were to start slaughtering all of his friends.  He may try to leave us. I don’t want that.  I would have to punish him severely.  I would rather break the boy in gently.  Get him slowly used to our ways.  I don’t want him to fight me.  It could get *very* unpleasant.”

 

Spike nodded.  He was surprised that Angelus was being so logical

 

“Now, time is short. Give the ice to your consort and then go and pack only what you need and we’ll be on our way.”

 

**

 

The two vampires re-entered the living room and Spike carried the ice pack over to his lover and carefully placed it against his face. Xander winced at the cold ice against his burning cheek.

 

“Sorry, luv.”

 

“Its okay, it’s just cold.”

 

Spike stroked his other hand through Xander’s hair. “I gotta go upstairs and pack some stuff for us.  I’ll be two minutes, tops. You gonna be okay here for a sec?”

 

Xander chanced a quick glance over to Angelus then back to his lover. “He won’t hit me again, will he?”

 

“Not as long as you stay still, stay quiet and do whatever he says. Don’t worry, luv, I’ll only be gone a sec. Here, hold on to this.” Spike replaced his hand with Xander’s on the ice pack.  He kissed his lover’s forehead and walked out of the room and up the stairs.

 

Xander slumped against the back of the couch and stayed as still as a statue.

 

“Tut, tut,” Angelus said.  He leant forward in his chair and threaded his hands together in front of him. “You had been such a good boy.  But obviously you needed a small demonstration of what happens if you cross me. But I’m sure you have learnt your lesson now, yes?”

 

“Yes.” Xander’s voice was nearly a whisper.

 

Angelus stood and stretched. “Good.” He walked over to the couch and grasped Xander’s arm yanking him to his feet.  Xander dropped the ice pack and stared wide eyed with sudden fear.

 

“Don’t panic,” Angelus almost soothed. “I hear Spike on the stairs.  It’s time we were all leaving.”

 

Angelus tugged Xander into the hall and met with Spike on the way. “All packed?”

 

Spike nodded.

 

“Good, then I think its time that we weren’t here.”  Angelus released Xander’s arm and pulled out a large knife.  He grabbed at Xander again and crushed his back against his chest, positioning the knife carefully at Xander’s vulnerable throat.

 

“Oi!”

 

“Oh, don’t get worked up, Spike.  I’m not going to hurt him. But I can smell the others outside.  I want to be sure that they won’t try anything. Now, open the door, there’s a good lad.  You can go first.”

 

The three of them stepped out of the house and edged their way to the car that was still parked in the middle of the street.  From the shadows the Scooby gang began to emerge.  Spike pointed at Buffy.

 

“Back off, Slayer.  Just let us go.  He’s got Xander and he’ll cut his throat if you come near us.”

 

Buffy nodded and called to Willow, Tara and Giles. “Back off, guys! Let them go!”

 

Willow and Tara retreated and Spike glared at Buffy, sending out a silent question. Why haven’t you gone to find the Puggli yet? Get bloody going!</i>

 

When they reached the car, Angelus shoved Xander into the back while he got into the drivers seat next to Spike. “Pathetic,” he spat as he started the SUV. “Okay! Are we happy campers?”

 

Spike and Xander mumbled their yes’s and Angelus drove the car out of the street.

Xander looked out of the back window and watched his friends disappear. He had only one thought. Please hurry, *please*</i>

 

**

 

The SUV arrived outside an old abandoned warehouse and Spike huffed as he helped his slightly battered lover out of the backseat. “Bleedin’ hell, does it *always* have to be a sodding abandoned warehouse?”

 

Angelus laughed. “Yes, it is rather cheesy.  What do you think, Xander?”

 

“Um, yeah.  Big with the cheese. And maybe a little of the mac to go with it,” Xander said, his meek voice defying the playful wit.

 

Angelus laughed again and ruffled Xander’s hair on his way into the dark building.  Xander looked at Spike, a confused expression slowly crossing his bruised face.

 

Spike explained. “He’s a bit Jekyll and Hyde. Just be glad he’s Jekyll at the moment.  C’mon, pet. We should go inside, get settled for the day.”

 

Xander nodded and they both followed Angelus into the warehouse.

 

“Um, Spike?”

 

“Yeah, luv, you okay?”

 

“Erm, kinda.  I can’t really see anything.”

 

“Oh, sorry pet.  Here take my arm.”  Spike nudged his arm gently into his lover’s side and Xander latched both hands onto it.

 

Spike followed his Sire’s scent into the back of the warehouse where he found Angelus sorting through a pile of blankets.

 

“Looks like you’ve been here earlier,” Spike noted, taking in the candles and other assorted items that were scattered about.

 

“Yes, well, you know me.  I like be prepared.” He threw one of the blankets at Spike. “Come on children, bed down.  We will all need our strength for tonight. Oh, and do I need to remind you? No running away.  You know what a light sleeper I am.”

 

“Yeah, yeah.  We know.  Don’t worry, we ain’t going nowhere.” Spike led his lover to a spot that was well away from the other vampire. Pulling Xander down to the cold floor, he wrapped the blanket around them both. He held his lover tightly and tried to sooth the trembling youth with gentle hands on his back.  It was obvious that Xander’s shaking was not just due to the freezing temperature in the warehouse. “Try to sleep, luv”

 

“I’ll try, but…”

 

“Sssh, I know. Don’t fret, baby. I’m here.  Gonna look after each other, yeah? This will be over soon and we can go back to normal”

 

“What if it’s never over? What will we do?”

 

“Don’t think like that.  I will be over. Trust me, my love. Trust me.”

 

 

**

 

The night came around slowly and Spike was positive that Xander had not slept a wink, he was too on edge.  Spike himself, had managed to drop off a few times, but each time he woke he could hear Xander’s rapid heartbeat and his unsteady breathing, proving that his consort was well and truly wide awake.

 

Spike glanced over to where Angelus had been sleeping and he noted that his Sire was gone.

 

Spike curled around his lover and placed soft kisses across his face. “C’mon, pet.  Time to get up.”

 

“Where are we going?” Xander asked with not a trace of sleep in his voice.

 

“Dunno exactly.  Maybe to find Drusilla.”

 

Xander closed his eyes and swallowed hard.  Dru.</i>  How would Spike’s dark princess react to the news that her former lover was technically hitched to a white hat?

 

Spike read his mind. “I won’t let her near you.”

 

“Aww, not even for a small taste.”

 

Xander sprung to a sitting position, he had not heard Angelus returning.

 

“Sorry. Did I startle you?” Angelus asked innocently.

 

Spike was indignant “You know you bloody did, you git!”

 

“Now, now, Spike, mind your manners.”

 

Spike nearly choked in an attempt to swallow a batch of insults that would have turned Ozzy Osborne pink with embarrassment.  He gritted his teeth and forced himself to look directly at his Sire. “Sorry *Angelus*”

 

“That’s quite alright, Childe.  I remember how grumpy you are first thing in the evening.” Angelus clapped his hands together and was pleased at the flinch that it raised from Xander.  Fear was the route to obedience.  Smirking, he spoke again. “Well, now that we are all wide awake, shall we get going?”

 

Spike stood and helped his lover to his feet. “And where exactly *are* we going?”

 

“Well, first I think we had better pop into town for a bite to eat and then we can go get Dru.”

 

“A *bite* to eat?” Xander asked.

 

Angelus was beside him in flash, purring into his ear.  Xander would have jumped a mile if it hadn’t been for Angelus’ hands holding him in a crushing grip. “Oh yes, I’m starving and if I don’t find a nice tasty human soon, I’ll have to resort to something a little more *home made*”

 

Xander closed his eyes again and tried to wish Angelus away.

 

“Hey! There *are* rules, you know! You can’t snack on my consort without my permission and you bloody well know it!”

 

Angelus released Xander and walked away. “Grumpy, grumpy.  Relax, Spike, I was only teasing.” He turned back and winked. “Be a good boy, Xander and bring the blankets.”

 

Spike gathered up the said blankets and gave them to Xander. “There you go, luv.  You had better take them.  We don’t to give him any reason to flip.”

 

Xander took them without a word.

 

“Hey, c’mon. The others are working on how to re-soul him.  He’ll be back to normal before we know it and all this will be over.”

 

“And until then?”

 

“And until then, we just play it cool. I know it’s hard, pet, but try not to show your fear; it’ll only make things worse.  Angelus thrives on it.  He really *is* teasing you and it’s because he knows you’re scared.”

 

Xander looked at Spike helplessly. “Vicious circle, come chase me round and round.”

 

“Look, Angelus may be many things, but he’s always valued his family. And you are part of that now. He might tease you, he might hit you, he might even say things that make your heart break, but he won’t kill you.  So just keep quiet, try not to show how scared you are and we will ride this through together.”

 

Xander tried to smile. “I guess it’s not forever, right?”

 

**

 

The black SUV pulled up unnoticed outside MacDonald’s and the vehicle’s three occupants sat in silence for several minutes while Angelus decided what he wanted to eat.

 

“Hmm, I’m not sure.  I’m just so indecisive these days.  Xander? We had better get yours first. What would you like?”

 

“Dunno.  Nothing,” Xander replied, somewhat sadly.  He knew what was coming

 

Spike turned around from the front seat and sighed at his lover. “C’mon, luv. You’ve got to eat sommit.”

 

“I’m not hungry.”

 

Spike knew his lover was lying.  Never was there a moment when Xander Harris wasn’t hungry. “Pet, you’ve got to keep your strength up.  Please eat something. For me.”

 

Xander lifted his head and opened his mouth to remind his lover that, as a week had not nearly passed yet, Spike was not allowed to use the *do it for me* trick. But a look that shone in Spike’s eyes told him that he really did need Xander to eat and keep his strength up.

 

Spike would need to feed soon and if he was to avoid feasting on the population, then his only choice would be to feed from his consort.

 

“Xaaanderr,” Angelus drummed his fingers impatiently on the steering wheel. “Do you want something to eat or not?”

 

Xander locked eyes with his lover one more time.  The message on Spike’s face was clear. Say yes</i>

 

“Um, you’re buying, right?”

 

Angelus smiled. The boy was quite sweet really, in a sickeningly human sort of way. “Of course.  What would you like?”

 

“Um, I’ll have a Big Mac with large fries, six chicken nuggets and onion rings.”

 

Angelus nodded and pulled over to the drive thru window. A muffled voice asked them for their order. Angelus repeated it and the voice asked them if they wanted a drink as well.  Xander lent forward. “Uh, yeah, large milkshake please. Strawberry.”

 

Angelus waited for the voice to repeat the order back and then he drove to the other window and collected and paid for the order.  For those few moments it almost felt like they had the old Angel back and Xander could finally see what Spike had been saying.  In his own unique way, Angelus would look after them.

 

Angelus turned the car around and pulled it into a parking space in front of the main part of the restaurant.  He gazed at the seated patrons through the large windows and turned to Spike.

 

“What about you? See any thing you want?”

 

“Not really hungry.”

 

“Is that so,” Angelus said with a touch of irritation in his voice.

 

“Look, you know I haven’t been feeding from humans.  Just give me some time to adjust back to the idea.”

 

This answer seemed to satisfy. “As you wish, Childe. Just don’t come complaining to me when your stomach starts grumbling.  Ahh, there’s a nice one.” As Angelus started to climb out of the car, he was stopped by a large belch coming from the back seat.  Angelus’ face lit up and he roared with genuine laughter. He turned to look at Xander and his laughter increased in volume at the sight of the half drunk milkshake, the empty boxes of nuggets, onion rings and fries and the half eaten Big Mac that was being held protectively by the wide-eyed boy.

 

“Sorry, it just slipped out.”

 

“That’s okay, Xander. I admire a man that loves his food.  You must really have been hungry.”

 

“Kinda,” Xander said, suddenly embarrassed by his piggishness.

 

Angelus frowned. “Hm, well say something next time. None one in my family *ever* goes hungry.”

 

“Okay, I will” Xander forced a slightly confused smile. Spike was right. Angelus was a real Jekyll and Hyde character. One minute he was trying to smack his brains out through his ears and next he was being all fatherly. Of course Xander didn’t really know what fatherly behaviour felt like, but he could hazard a pretty good guess.

 

“Good.  Now it’s time for *my* food.  Spike, are you sure you won’t join me?”

 

“Not this time, Sire, but thank you anyway.”

 

“You are most welcome, Childe.”

 

Angelus stepped out of the car and walked towards the restaurant. Time for some fun</i>.  He morphed into his game face and roared at the passing patrons.

 

When Xander heard the screams begin he forced down the last of his burger, knowing that he would not have much of an appetite once Angelus came back reeking of blood.

 

Spike watched Angelus feasting on the population of Macdonald’s and to his surprise he found himself feeling nothing but disgust for the blood sport that he had himself played for more than a hundred years. How had he lived like this? And why the fuck did it make him feel sick now?  Was it the consort blood that flowed through his veins? Or was it just being in such close proximity with such a wonderful, warm human like Xander that was bringing Spike’s own humanity to the surface.

 

The car rocked and a lifeless body was flung onto the bonnet and unceremoniously dragged off again. Spike heard a small whimpering sound coming from the backseat and he turned to face his lover.  Xander’s head was bent down, his eyes were screwed shut and he had clamped his hands tightly over his ears.  Spike climbed into to back seat and held his consort. “S’okay, luv. It’ll be over in a sec.”

 

“How can we do this?”

 

“How can we do what?” Spike asked

 

“Let him hurt and kill those people?!”

 

“We don’t have a choice.  He’ll do these things regardless.  All we’ll get out of interfering is a bloody good hiding. Like I said, just play along until your friends can re-soul him.”